“Sitting across from me is the remarkable human and brave survivor, Asia Argento, who has been through more than most could stand, and yet stand she does,” McGowan wrote in the letter addressed to her “Fellow Humans.”

“They laughed, they loved and he was her rock during the hardships of this last year,” noted McGowan of the star chef’s relationship with Argento.

“Anthony was open with his demons, he even wrote a book about them. In the beginning of their relationship, Anthony told a mutual friend, ‘He’s never met anyone who wanted to die more than him.’ And through a lot of this last year, Asia did want the pain to stop,” explained McGowan, 44, of Argento’s own struggles.

“But here’s the thing, over their time together, thankfully, she did the work to get help, so she could stay alive and live another day for her and her children. Anthony’s depression didn’t let him, he put down his armor, and that was very much his choice. His decision, not hers. His depression won.”

As Radar reported, Bourdaindied at age 61, when he used the belt of a bathrobe to hang himself in his room at Le Chambard hotel in Kayserserberg, France.

“I know before Anthony died he reached out for help, and yet he did not take the doctor’s advice,” revealed McGowan in the letter. “And that has led us here, to this tragedy, to this loss, to this world of hurt.”